SHE.HER.

Thursday, June 19, 2008

so much of things have happened recently..
and, i mean really alot..
i can't decide on what to do now..
work? or study?
should i wait and apply poly next year? or go psb in august/november?
should i join as full-time?

and in just a short two weeks..
i've faced two deaths..

daddy's uncle..
and, boyfriend's ye ye..

the death of ye ye hit me the worst..
not very close to him but still feel the pain..
tears flow without control..
somehow, reminds me of grandma..

it is worse for boyfriend..
i can really understand how he feels..
can't control myself when i heard him crying over the phone..
and in the end, we're both like taps flowing without control..

baby, take it easy alright..
this is part of life..
a route which everyone has to go through..
such thing reminds me that we've got to treasure those loved ones who are still beside us..
i know how you feel..
i lost both my grandmother..
it takes time for the pain to go away..

i'm losing control..
sleepless nights..
staring into space..
in short,
i'm totally moodless..

Friday, June 13, 2008

i am happy :)
boyfriend came over to my place just now..

for a very simple reason..
he just wanted to eat with me..
we thought of having mac breakfast,
but it was raining heavily and we both woke up late..
so, i cooked porridge instead since he's still not feeling well..

lalala~
he said my porridge is nice..
and he had three big bowls of it..
i didn't know someone who is sick can have such a big appetite..

he helped with some of the cleaning of my room..
hmmm alright, let's just say he helped me to change my bedsheet..

actually, he can be sweet at times..
i love him =D

i wanted to talk to you..
to have a nice chat with you..

but looks like after 2 years plus,
you still don't know what i want..

i shouldn't be complaining..
because i've long been used to all these..

i knew that the attention you've given me recently,
wouldn't last long..

maybe i really should think..
carefully..

Thursday, June 12, 2008

it has been 2 years 4 months for me in this clinic line,
and today was the very first day i met this super nice aunty..

her husband came for consultation..
and she was waiting for him..
meanwhile, she stood at the counter and chatted with me..

she asked whether i had taken dinner..
am i still studying..
told me to choose my friends carefully, don't fall into bad company..
best thing was,
she wanted to buy dinner for me..

such a nice aunty..
looks like i should change my opinion about aunties..
(:

Wednesday, June 4, 2008

i've got the mood to upload photos today..
and i know it's a long way back to my birthday..
but here are the photos..

me and daddy

my birthday dinner

at party world

with daddy mummy

with mummy

with brother

with boyfriend

and, i am 20 years old already :(

it was love at first sight for this phone..
samsung F200..

super small

it's a swing phone

went for K-Lunch and a little shopping with the girls yesterday..
but without Rui Xiang..
i miss her..

had lots of fun at K-Box..
Coreen was again the best entertainer for the day..
haha..

my seafood fried rice set

we took neoprint

and i finally got hold of the graduation photos..

the 5 ah lians

Graduation Ceremony 2008

with UncleChua

ISN (not all though)

and lastly, YES WE HAVE GRADUATED! =D

Tuesday, June 3, 2008

i don't know how..
and i don't know why..

it just happened..

Sunday, June 1, 2008

here, the lyrics.. (:

不知道什么时候
开始喜欢这里
每个夜里都会来这里看你
你长得这么美丽
叫我不能不看你
看不到你我就迷失了自己

好想牵你的手
走过风风雨雨
有什么困难我都陪着你
直到天长地久
直到天荒地老
爱的路上只有我和你

不知道什么时候
开始喜欢这里
每个夜里都会来这里看你
你长得这么美丽
叫我不能不看你
看不到你我就迷失了自己

有时候你很调皮
总是让我着急
一颗心总是为你跳不停
只要一闭上眼睛
总有千百万个你
你的影子装满我的脑海里

不能够不想你
也不能够忘记你
总是在梦里一直看到你
多想对你说句
我是真的爱你
对我的心不要再怀疑

好想牵你的手
走过风风雨雨
有什么困难我都陪着你
直到天长地久
直到天荒地老
爱的路上只有我和你

好想牵你的手
走过风风雨雨
有什么困难我都陪着你
直到天长地久
直到天荒地老
爱的路上只有我和你

i remember how i always complain about my boyfriend..
ask my close friends and you will know..
but yesterday,
i saw a different side of him..

went to TTSH yesterday to visit his ye ye..
first thing he did was to ask ye ye if he feels better and did he eat his lunch..
saw for myself how patient he was..
chat with him..
fed him with water,
applied analgesic cream for him,
helped him to adjust his watch,
kept persuading him to eat his dinner,
helped him to adjust his bed..
he even held on to a piece of tissue paper for ye ye to spit out his phlegm..
i believe this is something that not many will do..

another thing,
there is this old man in the same ward beside ye ye..
he just had an operation on his right hand and has difficulty moving..
boyfriend went over to help him to sit up so that he can take his dinner..

you have to agree that not many youngsters can be so patient..
especially with elderlies..
me?
i don't think i can do it..
my boyfriend is indeed special..

left TTSH at around 6.45pm..
went down to Bugis to meet Victor and Lian Zhao for dinner..
yes, boyfriend went with me..

walked over to Marina Square after dinner..
couldn't think of anything to do so Victor and Lian Zhao went home..
and guess what?!
BOYFRIEND WENT TO K-BOX WITH ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

goodness,
this is the first time we went K-Box alone together..
and it is after 2 years 3 months 14 days of being together..
LOL LOL LOL LOL!!!

and guess what?!
HE SANG YES HE SANG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
it is oh my god de hao ting lor can..

he sang 张栋梁's 小乌龟 for me..
oh my god, sooooooooooooooo sweet..
he selected 任贤齐's 愛的路上只有我和你,
and we sang together..
one part of the lyrics is,
好想牵你的手走过风风雨雨..
and oh my god, he really hold on to my hand while singing!!!!!!!!!!!!
i almost cried while singing lar can..
didn't know he can be so romantic..
i shall be nice and post the lyrics in the next post,
for you all to understand what the song means..
lalala~

like what i told Eunice..
i think i've fallen in love with boyfriend all over again..
looks like he can be classified as a perfect boyfriend?
I AM SO HAPPY!!!!!!!!!! =DDDDDDDDDDDD