Happy 2009!
a new year, a new beginning..
i hope everything goes well in 2009!
so, i realised i have not been updating on my life for a long long time..
so, here goes..
my work..
i converted from part-time to full-time September onwards..
which means, i have to fulfil 44 hours per week..
i'm sure a lot of people do not know what my job is about..
basically, i work in a clinic as a clinic assistant..
and my place at Rivervale is considered one of the busiest clinic..
at first the stress was tolerable..
but as the date to school starting gets nearer,
my level of stress gets higher..
i can't stop thinking about the amount of schoolwork,
the amount of projects,
that are going to start coming..
political issues at work are running high,
and i was in such an awkward position,
because my mum was the superior..
everyday at work, i had to listen to complaints from different colleagues..
i told my mum but there was nothing she could do..
actually i have to confess that all along,
i've not been a good controller of stress..
back in secondary school whenever exam gets near,
i got totally stressed up and starts to binge on food..
in short, i escape from stress..
but this time round..
the stress from work and school was so bad,
until i lost my appetite,
and i sank into depression..
my poor boyfriend had to put up with my terrible mood swings..
we were like happily talking over dinner and then suddenly on the way home,
i started to throw my temper..
tears also flowed without reasons..
but luckily, he was patient enough..
he came to pick me up after work and school everyday without fail..
i remember there was once when i felt so down that i texted him lots of negative thoughts..
i told him i wanted to die and all sorts of nonsense..
and that night, he came down to my workplace looking super worried..
sometimes, i think that my boyfriend is too good to be true..
we finally came to a conclusion that i can't cope between work and school..
so, i had a chat with my boss..
and she is wonderfully good..
she suggested that i convert back to part-time and that she can work out a special roster for me..
i'm sure this type of boss is a hard-to-find kind..
and i'm thankful that she's my boss..
not long after, mum came to know about my condition..
needless to say, Dr Lily must have told her lar..
so mum got me to sit down and had a long chat with me..
seriously, i felt so much better after talking to her..
i told her not to let dad know about this..
if not, i'll probably be forced to stop working..
yes, not even part-time will be allowed..
so now from January 09 onwards,
i'm a part-time staff again!
goodbye to Barney suit and goodbye to 44 hours per week!
and i realised that i made the right decision..
because i feel so much better now..
no more mood swings,
no more tears without reasons,
no more negative thoughts..
and i have more time for myself..
i guess life now for boyfriend also seems much relaxed..
at least he no need to worry about when i'll get mad..
haha..
this boyfriend of mine,
he started out to be wonderful,
turned to be terrible..
and now, i'm super glad that he's become super wonderful..
i really don't know what will happen to me if he's not there during my depression period..
and then school-wise..
stress is slowly creeping up on me..
projects projects..
two projects on hand now,
and nothing much has been done so far..
there's homework every week,
but luckily not that much..
i want to be first in class,
but looking at my classmates,
i don't think that's going to be easy..
